Category Archives: Human Suffering

Shift of Powers

These past few years have been rough for all of us, to say the least. It’s getting even rougher as resistance to the inevitable upcoming changes will affect all of us and is exhausting at times. However, it is understandable as change was never taken well by general public. I have worked years in Human Resources and know that change is fought and resisted passionately in general. Sad actually, as there are very well reasons why there is a hierarchy [identified powers] in place in business as well as all our teams in life. If people would or could accept their role in that team environment and cooperate, then the system would function smoothly. Regretfully it isn’t that simple. Specially in today’s world. People have gotten false beliefs and continue to challenge that team dynamic in general. That itself is the most damaging flaw that we as a nation must overcome if we are to see any success in our existence as humanity.

To elaborate even more on how these flaws are infesting within our communities, groups, government, and anything else, just see the upsetting oppositions between groups that are causing division. I personally spent much time behind my laptop, researching and reading. In doing that, I have noticed the comments from resisting groups who are very angry about these changes. Yes, these changes are narrowing gaps for indecencies and inappropriate behaviors for perpetrators. But they have to understand that we live in a democracy and liberal world. Powers are set based on logic. Not based on falsely presented facts to benefit bullying groups. Animal behaviors exerted by those who have had powers is simply unjust and uncalled for in today’s world. We cannot consciously give ourselves the okay to judge and challenge anything that is against one’s values. The greater good is more important.

A black and white example is our gun laws. Yes, in America guns have been assessed as our rights. However, with all the violence we are experiencing today, it must be reformed to accommodate/overcome today’s challenge . Yet, there are so many groups that cannot agree on that and will passionately fight and argue and if needed maliciously use/abuse their powers to get their points across to ensure this amendment remains as it was assessed as our rights! Really?  These groups are insisting that we maintain this law as it is and advocates even more guns among us so that we can protect ourselves. The other day the News was showing teacher receiving military training and schools are to be armed now. Great! What is the mission? To get our people even more violent and agitated? Are we to be on guard now according to those people, believing that an armed world is a place to exist? So wrong. I would have to live in such a volatile world, always on guard. OMG! We have to kindly understand that we must reform our systems to make it work for us and not adopt more and more of combative behaviors.

Another huge one is the shift of powers between men and women. Our men despite  logically expressing their compassion, wanting to cooperate, to make the world a better place for all genders, are acting upset in all walks of life. This too goes back to humanity automatically resisting/opposing change. Just look at our history! Great innovations were battled and denied and people who introduced them were initially prosecuted just to stand our ground in our wrong belief systems.

Sure, men have gotten away all these years with being adored and being given powers to run like a bull into the china shop, not really thinking that these damaging behaviors have a ripple effect throughout their immediate communities and society in large. Despite the light that has been shined on these ugly  behaviors through recent uproars, we are, however, collectively at fault. Because we allowed these behaviors for years to manifest and now it is a second nature to them. Logic wants them to cooperate, but learned belief systems will motivate them to fight changes with all their powers. As a Life Coach, I know reform/change of deeply embedded conditioning is a lot of work. Yet only hard work can and will lead to success.

Embracing change, that includes the shift of powers, is the only way to ensure our continuance. My biggest wish/dream is that we all one day soon are able to grow/evolve on that fact. I did and can testify that it is liberating to embrace change. The wisdom of Taoism, a Chinese religion, tells us that we must learn to be flexible in life in order to flow with the needs of our times. Remember change is inevitable!

Love and Blessings ❤️

Now or Never!

earth angelNow or never is the divine warning to all of us! We have all the resources to be great again yet we have allowed ourselves to walk the wrong path. Why? As it is absolutely not needed. Yes, it is lots of work to turn our ship around, but healing starts with a small step. To heal the world, heal thyself first. And know that the journey is fun and rewarding. Dare to and just mimic all others who have accomplished true happiness. I know that we can do it cause I did it. How to? It is a lengthy process. However, it can be expedited only if you could stop denying facts, that we have all the resources to be great. Who am I to deliver such a profound, life changing message? Well, apparently we are going through a paradigm shift on earth and seem like I am part of it. Listen to Harry Styler’s song “Sign of the Times”:

It’s been leery and ominous, to say the least. But I am done playing small as all the signs lead to a logical explanation for my existence. I am a true teacher, a writer, and a life scholar who cares about you and us. I want us all to do well. Within these past few weeks, it has unraveled that I am one to organize the facts/resources so that we all can propel together. I believe we all want that. The 1st thing that must stop in order for us to start healing is to accept that we only can live up to our potential within this animal kingdom. And no! you cannot be anything you want to be if you lack the potential which is a law of animal kingdom hierarchy. Accept, stop being jealous, trying to outdo those above you. That’s the first thing. Believe in all existing powers as well as good and bad energies and the truth that if we don’t pay attention to what we need to, then we will be misled/misguided and suffer. We all know how that feels like as we are all hurt children who want to be loved. Watch Pink’s video, called “What About Us”:

I truly had no option than to believe and develop faith in our Universe after getting the messages loud and clear. But honestly, I wasn’t even a believer, to begin with. That fact confirms that there is no way I could have been brainwashed to blindly believe, in other words, I cannot be delusional. Impossible! The next step is to do right, always and in any situation or interactions. Please do not engage in mindless entertainment that allows the top to lead us like marionettes. Look where we are at because we have been trained to focus on just passing the presented bridge and pretend to be happy. We are not. A sample is the hurricane Harvey. We have been warned that climate change will devastate our habitat. Yet we failed to prevent and we engage in helping now to feel worthy and humble about ourselves momentarily. Enough already. There is still time to prevent future disasters. Failing to plan is the same as planning to fail. The other day I watched the news and observed all the kindness and that all of us wanting to help, which is honorable. Yet, what the fuck! That’s the most stupid mistake ever. We need to address as soon as a problem arises and not let it go to shit! Makes me furious and sad.

Wrong is too that we continue to tolerate wrongs to prevent shaking things up or change the status quo. A pretty obvious present situation is that we continue to tolerate that idiot president’s behaviors while he continues to endanger us/the world due to wanting to entertain and enrich himself. We have allowed him to because we are busy running our routine life’s, convinced we are powerless to force any changes while some run the show. We can do better.

What about gun control? In today’s dangerous world with lots of mental patients running around we continue to argue that the 2nd amendment is still relevant. Not really! We need to wake up before the damage infests and permanently damages. A big sample is as our present opioid epidemic. There are things that are black and white. Stop arguing right and wrong. The sooner you accept, the faster you get to where you can go. Live in now and do your best. Please manage all presented risks at all times to prevent future disasters and take the right steps to ensure harmony, peace, and love.

Another fundamental shift that must happen is that our men must stop behaving like hotshots and predators, falsely following sex and money and power, pretending to be kind with animals or children or their significant others or mothers and friends just to appeal sexually or misuse a woman’s biological tendencies/vulnerabilities to seek love and affection. All of these are signs of seeking to deceive or manipulate. These kind of behaviors will upset and send the wrong messages. That women must and need to compete with one another for men’s attention or play other games. What that will do is to dis-harmonize and cause unnecessary conflicts and corruption resulting in damaging outcomes. The value of a strong family is our only way of continuance. But nowadays we are conditioned to compete, be corrupted, censor, pretend, and/or be manipulative. These are our flaws. Terrible! That must change. Accept that our women have more powers. Utilize them and be more efficient. Any behaviors in contrary to the laws of our Universe will damage our environment. To achieve peace and prosperity, aim to heal. Isn’t that what it should be all about?

Another fact observed is that so many men are not able to compete in today’s world due to not meeting the set standards to achieve happiness and bliss. Many are assessed as too weak, categorized, or expelled. These minorities either resort to convert into the opposite gender or choose to be homosexuals or suicidal or mental or depressed. More terrible conditionings that we partake in because we categorize everyone based on our own false values embedded deeply in our blueprints. What are we unknowingly doing?  Just because someone is different, you should not judge by a superficial evaluation and thereof dismiss. Misjudging/misassessing is not only ugly, it is a possible lost opportunity. Additionally, you are conditioning someone with your passive aggressive, subliminal messages. So do not be afraid of dialogue as it makes us grow nor be afraid of following all methods to aim for greatness. Here is one published method on how to update your blueprint:

In contrary to all that is being preached presently, censorship, pretentiousness, consumption, and mindless entertainments are indeed habits of feeble minded people who are lead. If you want to propel and ever experience bliss, then drop these flaws. These behaviors have sickened our society and are the culprit of all our sufferings. We can do better together if we put our minds to it. That’s why forming the right team is so important to gather the support system that empowers.

In this piece, I am including a video that talks of a Bethlehem star and the 12 signs that correlate with our science that confirm our present shift. So excited for our generation to be part of it.

After having watched a few videos, as the one above, and connecting the dots of all that has transpired in my life, I now am a believer.  I have achieved self healing and am eager to teach you too the how to’s so that you may save yourself as well. Our greats are indeed drumming these messages in many forms and shapes ever since our existence. I continue discovering them. So can you. We humans can be beautiful if we choose too and there are lots of beautiful things on this earth to enjoy, including man’s creations that include music to movies to medical advancement to technology to art to history and the list goes on and on. Manage and preserve us. Do it!

Love and Blessings ❤️


Gratitude Opportunities

The past few weeks have been even further more revealing and saddening. I have been toying with the idea on how to express these events in writing as another phase of my life that’s transpiring presently. Again because they are ironic, quite emotional, and carry lots of lessons to share. But words never properly would form in my head. So I decided to act and start writing them anyhow to let the stories tell themselves. If I am a writer, creative, a teacher, and an entertainer as I claim to be, words will paint the pictures to entertain and educate.


The events and outcomes that have transpired over the past few days are very much in alignment with my missions in life; Entertain and educate to spread love. These are gratitude opportunities that must be acknowledged. Also a validation of my respect for myself. Even if I get 0 audience, reading my previous posts make me fall more in love with myself. Which is another great tool that I swear by. Love and accept yourself. Be authentic. All of these are great concepts that can boost your confidence and increase your value to yourself and others.

Seems like all these events are happening ever since my looks and thinking patterns have changed. [to read how, read My Story] Which is OK by me. But truly sad and faltering. I, at times, despair because of too much ugliness.  It’s hard to remain optimistic and pull yourself out of those modes at times. It feels fake to be positive when all is negative and there are no hopes/encouragements around you. You have to be grateful if you remain clear and survive. What has helped me, is educating myself. Training my brain. I personally am very grateful for living at this digital age. It gives me access to a lot of good resources that I can learn from. So always train your brain! Know that these experiences, however, uber emotionally charged and tense they are, they carry at least one lesson if not more. Look forward to discover the value(s) that you are going to gain because you survived another battle. It’s beautiful.

I am happy I am strong enough to sustain them by myself. And I do have to say that universe has gifted me with many blessings. One of them is a very strong woman in my neighborhood. She is 86, has experienced much in life, and is such a positive woman to look up to, in short. There are tons of interesting stories she has to tell. I do hope she gets to write her stories while it is possible. It’s a privilege to be able to talk to this power source and have her love and support. I greatly appreciate that. I water aerobic almost daily with her in the morning. The pool is right in front of the door. The house has been another blessing that I have had in life. If I didn’t have my domain to fall onto, I would have fallen in life and totally would have lost it big. But my house and my environment that I have worked for very hard to establish, strengthens and sustains me. Someday I will publish a post with pictures and stories of this magical place. It definitely carries Feng Shui powers. All of these blessings in life. However, know that it takes tons of hard work, strong faith [mine comes from spirituality, another chapter that I plan to share later], patient, persistent, optimism, the desire to want something from the bottom of my heart despite all that tried to divert me, and the imagination that I can do it.  Even if not, isn’t more fun and exciting to pursue something or complete a project? Have fun! However, I am confident I will make it as I have always succeeded by very patiently and slowly adding the right tools and adapting the right attitude to propel.Where there is a will, there is a way. It excites me to think that there can be even brighter light at the end of the tunnel. What a great blessing that is. So many people around our globe will sadly never have that opportunity. Learn from failures, move on, and do it better the next time. I have been so often in situations that I consider major failures. But all of them equipped me with valuable lessons that made me know who I am, what I want or not, and how to proceed next.

I broke off with 2 of my oldest friends. We had known each other for18 years. Why? Because I assessed them as not being true friends anymore. They are also not people that I would like to hangout with. That simple. They knew that I have been wanting to be a writer and never offered any feedback on my projects. Additionally they continued declining collaboration on any projects or events that I suggested.

One of them claims that she is short on money. She loves making edible goodies with chocolates. I suggested that I can put together a website for her so that she can start selling her stuff. And since I am strong with decorative pieces that we eventually could sell together. She never reacted to that.

The last decline set me off. Enough was enough. She has been complaining on not having a man in her life to share things with. Since I am interested in networking to find investors for my project and/or seek to learn of new strategies on how to advance it, I asked her if she wanted to go to a local networking event together. It would have been a win-win situation for her and me. Lots of professional men were expected to be there. She simply declined and wished me vaguely good luck. I had asked her last month too. She excused herself by needing to go to gym. However, said that she always wanted to go for an happy hour to that hip bar in Phoenix. She said that if I would let her know next month for at least a week in advance, she would plan for it. Turned out that was an empty statement. Yes, I could have told myself something positive to continue our friendship. But what for?

The other friend went into freelance publishing business after her autoimmune disease diagnosis. Since my background was graphic design and I always have been entrepreneurial, I suggested that we setup a business together. She declined. Because she excuses herself with her Catholic belief. Our paths don’t mix she thinks. However, I truly have been professional thus far. No lie, I dislike organized religion. Love, faith, and spirituality, however, are awesome! How can one not appreciate those qualities in mankind or any institution? I respect that they have it and share it among their members. Wish I could be so blessed. However, it’s not in me to pretend I believe in certain things just to harvest the love and warmth of that community. Deceiving! Besides, it’s in me to always see the glass half full and appreciate the goodness in any situation. I believe that I always presented myself as such a person. If anyone has been offended, they misunderstood me. I always appreciate and love what’s good in you. The interaction that did it, where I thought enough is enough, is when she ignored my suggestion to go to a WordPress learning Meetup together to advance our skills. You see, after I had told her that I had started a blog, she wrote that she too was about to start a blog and will share details with me later. So I got excited for her. Thinking to myself, wow, what are the odds that one of my oldest friends is going to be engaged in the same activities as I am. Finally we will be able to collaborate on something together. I tried but never could do anything more!

All these years they both knew that I have been seeking closeness and friendship, but they never invited me into any of their circles such as July 4th camping, Thanksgiving dinners, card games, movie nights, family get-togethers and more. All I was good for is to be seen every 2 months for 2 hours for meals and superficial talks. I could no longer do that without them wanting to grow and develop with me. It was getting boring. I do have to say that both did offer some goodness. But I strongly believe that I always have lowered my expectations in life to see the glass half full. Any other friend at that time would have given me a birthday gift or attended my citizenship ceremony and things in that nature. I appreciated them. However, nothing extraordinary. No jumping through hoops to make my life better. As I had said in a previous post, have a friend for the sake of having a friend. Someone who matches your expectations.

Another interaction that was quite disappointing yet a valuable lesson was my interaction with this guy whom with I had a strong connection with. Long story short, my husband and I have decided that we are separating for reasons that I will not elaborate on at this time. That itself is a story to be told and I look forward to that article. I am grateful, however, that him and I have come to the conclusion to peacefully separate to hopefully begin our next exciting chapter in life. So naturally I am open to meet my one and only. So this guy attracted me cause he sounded nice and after looking at his LinkedIn profile, I wanted to get to know him more. Him and I talked during my customer service job. He, however, despite feeling the connection, looked at my blog site and specifically the characteristic page and decided that we are not a match. Respectable. I honor that. And am happy that I have established a tool that quickly tells prospects who I am. That way we are not wasting time to get to know each other during a lengthy process only to identify that we don’t like each other. Perfect tool for me. As it quickly eliminates unfitting people. However, what was disappointing is that this guy looks at all details on my site and only picks out what he doesn’t like about me to point out. That was a sad moment. And he also tried to infer fears in me and/or bully me before he ceases communication. Fear because he is a network security guy and thinks that revealing one’s personality publicly is dangerous. He also insinuated that my picture is sexually suggestive as I have my hands behind my head on my LinkedIn image. After a few hours of toying with the idea of taking my site down and hide, I chose to laugh.  Because I have faith and believe that this is a positive outcome. Let unfitting people fall away fast. Besides I have nothing to hide. How can I become a famous writer/storyteller if I am afraid to publicize my life stories and hide who I am? No fears, as I too would like to be an entertainer and a teacher through my stories. Like so many other bloggers who have accomplished living a successful and an abundant life in the eyes of public, I too will dare. So why not me?  There! Plus point is that this guy confirmed that I am sexy. Which woman doesn’t like to hear that? Especially someone like me who wants to succeed in the public eyes. That’s how you can always see the positive in everything.

Valuable lessons of these events and interactions are: 

  • Get to know yourself as best as you can.
  • Honor your values. Refrain from compromising your values to please a community. If you are strong and you’re in the zone, your community too will benefit.
  • Love/respect yourself and ALL will love/respect YOU.
  • Know what you’re looking for. The more specific you are, the smaller the haystack  gets. You will find your needle.
  • Drop fears and dare to plunge. What do you have to lose? It will be fun and you might succeed, trying. All my gains have come about when I dared in life. Do it. You can!

Peace and Blessings❤️




Love Lives Forever


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The death of our dog Sophie was one of the many painful experiences of my life thus far. But she made her exit so graceful and spiritual. It all went fast. Diagnosed 6/15/16 and resting in peace since 6/20/16. The eerie coincident was that she started getting sick a few days after my bike fall. As if life couldn’t get worst. Initially I thought she had eaten something that upset her stomach. Within a few days, her tummy blew up and was hard to the touch. Her appetite too had gone down, she was moving slower, and vomited a few times. I thought maybe she was constipated and because of that toxic waste sitting in her intestine, she was feeling sluggish. Too was the triple digit temperature weather not helping. We continued watching her bathroom habits. She would go but only poop a tiny bit. But there were no signs of dehydration. She also would continue struggling to push out drops of water. After watching her for 3 days being in the same state, I decided to take her to vet for x-ray and exam. It was Wednesday 6/15/16.

The vet said the words that I never wanted to hear even before x-ray. That he was confident that Sophie has been carrying a cancerous tumor that aggressively blew up within a few weeks in her stomach. He said it could be sitting on the spleen or the liver. We could attempt to do a surgery to take the mass out. Yet he said such a procedure would be invasive emotionally and physically to the dog. It would dent our pocket and might extend her life for a few months, in 15% to 20% of all cases that he has seen in his 27 years of work with animals.

Sophie 5/7/07 - 6/20/16
Sophie 5/7/07 – 6/20/16

Tears started flowing. Yet, both dogs were calm. Which was unusual. Normally they would  both be nervous and panting. My mind started racing. I wanted to do the right thing. Mostly I wanted to be there for Sophie and Gia so that they knew there was nothing to fear in life. That I love them and even in transition will remain strong or maybe even conquer this with them. The doctor highlighted that he would absolutely respect if I put the dog down. In hindsight I know he meant it well. However, at that moment it was upsetting and unimaginable. I told him that I need to sleep over it. As I was not going to blindly take this verdict and immediately decide what to do next. I owed it to me and my friend. I could not just decide that she needs to go. What if she is curable and/or it is not yet time for her to go. At home I kept thinking that Sophie was going to miraculously heal and be her old self some day soon. I researched the net, wrote my questions down, and decided that I was going to get a second opinion the next day. Yet she kept getting weaker and weaker and I could feel that it was best to accept reality and not to drag it on until I felt emotionally ready. The last thing I would ever want is my beautiful dog that has been a true friend for 9 years to suffer to please myself. And I could tell she was badly trying to still please me. With her wags, her attempts to eat, to go for walks, to greet visitors, follow me upstairs to watch me work, and some other cutesy demeanor, despite lacking the energy. After speaking to the doctor for the second time, having read all the research, and closely monitoring Sophie’s status, I decided to let her go in peace and in good spirit. Her in-home euthanasia was tentatively scheduled for Monday 6/20/16, between 4 – 5 in the afternoon. This date ended up happening.

We celebrated her life while keeping her hydrated, fed, and comfortable, secretly hoping for a miracle. Yet determined to keep up her spirit and body in the most best possible shape. It was a nice time as we built lots of good final memories with our dog.

Meanwhile I continued to feel guilty because Sophie has always been fixated on me. Whenever I would feel emotionally beaten, she would jump on my lap, lick my face, and cuddle. Or if I would be agitated or speak fast and loud, she would be hiding and be stressed out. Poor thing! It also didn’t help that my mother would claim that bad energies that were meant to harm me on my bike fall, transferred to Sophie. Some superstitious believes that she has picked up from her Persian culture. Subconsciously she has conveyed to me that it is so and I must be grateful that it bypassed me, into my Sophie. Really!!?

It was Sunday morning. Sophie, Gia, and I went up. While they laid in their usual place on the recliner chair, I was mindlessly looking through all my papers. I discovered a few local magazines that I had picked up in a doctor office or maybe some holistic supermarket a year earlier. At the end of one of them, there was an ad for Critter Doc, Andrea Sobotka. She caught my attention. I further researched her site and decided to send her an email about Sophie’s situation. I truly needed a spiritual soul to confirm that Sophie is indeed transitioning. And I also needed to know if it’s my fault as my mother had insinuated. She replied within hours and she happened to have time on Monday. What a blessing. Andrea was kind enough to put us at ease with feeling Sophie’s low energy and validating that she was indeed ready to leave this phase behind. Much more importantly she put me at ease by telling me that the dog has chosen me and is very happy with the love that we have exchanged and is not afraid to transition. She applauded our ability to accept reality and allow her to go in peace. That love lives forever ❤️Love Infinity

Her transition was one of the most beautiful, spiritual Picture of Sophie and Gia with meexperiences that I ever have had. For days, we closely cuddled lots, smelled lavender oil, sat and laid with powerful crystals, ate grilled chicken and steak together, kissed her belly lots, and adored her shinny fur and beautiful soul, captured moments in pictures and videos, told her that it’s OK to transition, and thanked her for her friendship.

Per Andrea, Sophie had chosen to stay around as spirit for a while after her transition. Call me crazy, but I feel her presence once in a while around. Sophie used to growl and intimidate Gia when she would get too close to me and take her place. Gia still gets up, acts like she’s seen a ghost, and moves away. Just like back in the days! As scary as it sounds, it is comforting to know that she loved us enough to want to stick around. Not sure if there is such a thing!?

Reading other peoples’ experiences with such a transition does help a lot as well. Read this blog post from the gifted Sarah Petruno. Another comforting activity is to recall and view memories that have gathered overtime. These activities include: recalling events, watching movies and pictures. And not to forget the support of a loving community is healing that I am very thankful for. We received many sympathy cards and FB posts. Thank you all for your kind words.

Her spirit will forever last in our hearts and in our home.

Let’s never fail to form lasting memories in life while we can and always trust that love lives forever, making pain a temporary life phase that will pass.

Peace and Blessing ❤️



Human Suffering

Presently I feel so vulnerable and hurt in my life because of my bike accident last week. My MS symptoms have gotten worse ever since. Legs below my knees feel numb. Left leg overall is stiff. I am clumsy and have no coordination. Yesterday and the day before my eyes suddenly started to burn and water as I was working. Since I had to cease work, wage loss and financial burdens are causes for even more stress in my life! As if an injury is not bad enough. Exercise activities, biking, dancing, and occasional yoga poses, too are out of the picture. So no stress reduction and balance forming activities for me for a while. Great! I have gained 6 pounds.


Naturally I am depressed and can only pray that this time passes too as I have no one who will take care of me if I am not strong enough to take care of myself. Sad to say but it is the truth.

This made me think of my dad. He was all alone by himself when he got hit by a car while he was walking on the sideboard. The driver had epilepsy. He experienced an episode while driving and hit my dad. He must have been in excruciating pain while both his legs were broken in a cast. It took 6 months for him to heal. And none of us were around to help emotionally nor physically.

That’s when I realized that human strength is amazing. What a patience and endurance. All of those who have suffered due tragic circumstances in life and have still come up on top. The most interesting thing that happened to me was that I came across Marie Forleo’s latest blog post. It included Marianne Williamson‘s interview that introduced me to Tears to Triumph: The Spiritual Journey from Suffering to Enlightenment book. I downloaded as an audiobook. This book validated my feelings and has been an affirmation. She too talks of human suffering and how it forms our character and belongs to humanity. All experiences bad or good are lessons to learn from.

The book gave me the hope that I too can come out of this experience stronger! So did so many valuable people in life. That’s why humanity has prevailed and advanced. Remember that through good and bad. Always remain positive and be grateful for all that is. And don’t fail to learn your lesson(s). These are my notes to myself today. May others too know that they are not alone.

Peace and Blessing ❤️